Ever notice how you can read the same scripture over and over, sometimes for years; and then one day your eyes are opened and you receive a deeper level of understanding than you've ever had before?
That's the way it was with me. One day I read Yohannon 1:1-15, and my eyes were opened. The phrase 'Came to be,' indicates, represents, points to, Yahoshua. (see verse 3). The revelation was this: Yah spoke, and with the breath of Yah, the Ruach haKodesh, all things 'came to be' by Yahoshua. It is not necessary for me to know the 'how' this all transpired, but this is the understanding I was given. If I were to reduce it to it's most simplistic terms, the best way I, as a human being, could even possibly describe it, would be to say: Yah was the Engineer. Yahoshua was the Architect, and the Ruach HaKodesh was the Force That Breathed Life into all creation. I will just leave that there.
Another retrospective until I 'catch up.'
My next awakening was coming to understand the beauty of the Hebrew Aleph-Bet. Let me state here, that I do not speak, read or understand Hebrew. I am learning to recognize the Hebrew aleph-bet, so that I might understand the original meaning of each individual letter, however, I have no desire to learn the language. I feel that the Hebrew language as spoken today has become corrupted by imposters, the passage of time, regional dialects, etc. My choice is to wait until we are restored to our homeland, and our native tongue is restored to us - and I'm pretty sure it won't be Yiddish. Yah will restore our land, culture, heritage, and native tongue. I can wait for that. In the meantime, the revelation that the Hebrew Aleph-Bet, all 22 letters, is a beautiful testimony of the life and mission of our Maschiach, Yahoshua, and declares his 'oneness' with our creator, Yah.
This is another retrospective blog re: my spiritual growth. After 2010, there was approximately 5 years worth of study, learning what it means to be Hebrew, witnessing and subsequently being disappointed that not everyone I shared with, was as excited upon receiving the truth as I was. That took some adjustment. Initially I was so excited, I wanted to grab hebrews by the throat and make them see what I saw. I quickly learned it doesn't work that way. Everyone in Yah's time frame, and some unfortunately, not at all.
Time progressed. One day I was browsing on the internet and came across a website, ( it always seems I receive insight while looking for something else), and my spiritual perspective was changed forever. I came across www.AlephTavScriptures.com,and learned of the Aleph Tav and the significance of it being a direct marker or signature of the divine presence. Specifically, an indicator of with whom, and with what, the covenant resides. Everywhere, in ancient scriptures it is associated with the Name of Yah/Yahuah, and the Name of Yahoshua/Yahshua. For example: It was associated with Qayin and Hevel up until Qayin murdered Hevel. After that act, the Aleph tav is no longer associated with Qayin, only with Hevel - even after his death. Mahalal'el, Chanok, Methushelach, Lemek, and Noach all had the Aleph Tav associated/before their names. Another beautiful example is the story of Ruth. She was a Moabite. Her name appears 12 times in the scriptures, but it is not until Boaz (who was associated with the Aleph/Tav) redeems her, that the Aleph/Tav is associated with Ruth's name.
IOW's, the Aleph Tav is a sign post. It points directly to Yahoshua, haMaschiach. Whoever has the Aleph Tav in front of their name, has Yahoshua, the strength of the covenant, and becomes part of the covenant. Whoever does not...well.
May the Aleph Tav, and thus Yahoshua, be associated with your name.
This is a retrospective of my life since hearing the 'The Good News'. I came into the truth in 2009 while doing some research for a book I was writing at the time, and it was purely by chance that I came upon IsraeliteHeritage.org. One minute I was totally engrossed in writing a novel, the next minute my life was changed forever. I came across information that said I was Hebrew, and that Deuteronomy 28, indeed the entire bible, told my history. Genesis 15:13-14 cinched it for me: that I/we are the true Chosen Ones of The Most High. I learned the Names of Salvation, Yah and Yahoshua. I learned of the Torah and how to keep Yah's laws. Most importantly, I learned what sin was, how not to transgress Yah's laws, and that I was expected to be perfect in keeping Torah. I put my book aside, and for the next year, I devoured anything relating to Yah, Yahoshua, and Yisra'el. I was immersed in January, 2010.
I should probably state here that I am Messianic. Accepting the truth was not difficult for me. As a matter of fact, upon hearing it, everything 'fell into place.' I heard the truth, the words spoke to my being, and I believed. Just like that! Within the space of one week, I'd figuratively 'cleaned' my house of every graven image(cherubim), crucifix, rosary, medal, (I was catholic at the time), or pictures of a white Jesus plastered on the wall. I quit smoking cigarettes cold turkey, the week before I was immersed. I fasted and made a vow to Yah, asking Him to heal my body of any damage I'd done to it, and I've never smoked another cigarette again. I do have the occasional craving, but as we all know, you don't break a vow you've made to Yah - at least not if you're smart.
My walk has not been easy. Since coming into the truth, I've been sorely tested a few times; three times financially. I never lost faith, not even when other Hebrews said: 'You must've done something to bring this on yourself', or 'Yah is judging you'. I lost an achoti who I'd thought was a friend; someone who was 'in the truth', someone who said I'd brought the test on myself because I wasn't praying right; because I was leaving the west coast to return home to Philly; and worse, that the Ruach HaQodesh was ready to depart from me; my misfortunes were a warning from Yah: the Ruach was about to leave permanently - or so she said, He said. No. I rebuked that pronouncement, and her too!
When my granddaughter was 5 or 6 years old, I was forbidden to teach her anything about 'that religion.' Well, it was a blessing for her that I'd already taught her to pray, and taught her the Names Of Salvation, Yah and Yahoshua, before her mother laid down that law. Unfortunately, to keep the peace with his woman, my son supported her decision. So I backed away. Yahuah willing, when my GB gets older, she will come to me herself.
I've been poisoned by another achoti who also was, 'in the truth' supposedly. The witch, left me lying on the bathroom floor writhing in pain while she stood outside the bathroom door and listened - after I asked her for help. She did not help me. She walked away and left me there, I truly believe, to die. Prayer saved me that night. The pain flowed away (for that's how it seemed). I picked myself up, crawled into bed, and slept like a baby. The following day when I mentioned it, she confessed she'd heard me, but figured I'd 'be OK.' To this day I have no idea why she was so heartless, but I could not be around her after that.
These things were difficult, hurtful, and yes, downright painful! However, I saw them all for what they later turned out to be - tests; and a refining. Through it all, I bolstered myself with scripture; Mark 11: 22-24 was a favorite. I kept faith that Yah had a plan. I've learned that He is a Good Shepherd. He protects, He heals, and He provides for those who are His own. Yah Nicciy! Yah Rophe'ka! Yah Yireh! Still, I have no doubt there may be other tests. I can only strive to endure until the end.
As I said before, it was not easy; however, I did not falter, and Yah has blessed me. Do I have material possessions? Not much, but I am satisfied I have what I need. Yahoshua intercedes on my behalf, and Yahuah hears my prayers. It has been given to me during prayer, from what lineage I descend; and - I am not surprised! I have the Strength of the Covenant, the Sign, the את, with me. I have the gifts of the Ruach HaQodesh, that are meant for me and,
I am content.
These things to me, are more priceless than gold.
I remember one of the first things I did in preparation for my immersion in January 2010, was to research, and select a fitting Hebrew name for myself. In Hebrew culture our names had meaning; and was reflective of our, or our parents, our environment, or our cultural relationship with our Mighty One, Yah. It was never 'made up,' or phonetically spelled, for even the letters of the Hebrew Aleph-Bet had meaning/significance and foretold the coming and mission of haMaschiach, Yahoshua. Nick names were unheard of. A name given to a being was a solemn matter.
I prayed much for guidance. I wanted my name to reflect not only who I was, but also, who I aspired to become. More importantly, I wanted my name to testify of my relationship with Yah, my walk, and hopefully, my growth in the Torah.
One day I came across MattithYah 5:14-16, which says:
'You are the light of the world. It is impossible for a city to be hidden on a mountain.
"Nor do they light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on a lampstand, and it shines
to all those in the house.
"Let your light so shine before men, so that they see your good works and praise your
Father who is in the heavens..."
The verses resonated within me. I researched the Hebrew word for 'Light', and found the feminine
name 'Neorah.' It is pronounced as you would 'neighbor.' I added the Father's Name to it, and thus it became, NeorahYah.
NeorahYah means 'Light unto Yah,' or 'Fire unto Yah.'
I pray that I always shall be.
Now what really blew my mind, was the eventual realization that in Yah's Book Of Life, the name NeorahYah was already recorded for me, before the Foundation Of The World.