This is a retrospective of my life since hearing the 'The Good News'. I came into the truth in 2009 while doing some research for a book I was writing at the time, and it was purely by chance that I came upon IsraeliteHeritage.org. One minute I was totally engrossed in writing a novel, the next minute my life was changed forever. I came across information that said I was Hebrew, and that Deuteronomy 28, indeed the entire bible, told my history. Genesis 15:13-14 cinched it for me: that I/we are the true Chosen Ones of The Most High. I learned the Names of Salvation, Yah and Yahoshua. I learned of the Torah and how to keep Yah's laws. Most importantly, I learned what sin was, how not to transgress Yah's laws, and that I was expected to be perfect in keeping Torah. I put my book aside, and for the next year, I devoured anything relating to Yah, Yahoshua, and Yisra'el. I was immersed in January, 2010.
I should probably state here that I am Messianic. Accepting the truth was not difficult for me. As a matter of fact, upon hearing it, everything 'fell into place.' I heard the truth, the words spoke to my being, and I believed. Just like that! Within the space of one week, I'd figuratively 'cleaned' my house of every graven image(cherubim), crucifix, rosary, medal, (I was catholic at the time), or pictures of a white Jesus plastered on the wall. I quit smoking cigarettes cold turkey, the week before I was immersed. I fasted and made a vow to Yah, asking Him to heal my body of any damage I'd done to it, and I've never smoked another cigarette again. I do have the occasional craving, but as we all know, you don't break a vow you've made to Yah - at least not if you're smart.
My walk has not been easy. Since coming into the truth, I've been sorely tested a few times; three times financially. I never lost faith, not even when other Hebrews said: 'You must've done something to bring this on yourself', or 'Yah is judging you'. I lost an achoti who I'd thought was a friend; someone who was 'in the truth', someone who said I'd brought the test on myself because I wasn't praying right; because I was leaving the west coast to return home to Philly; and worse, that the Ruach HaQodesh was ready to depart from me; my misfortunes were a warning from Yah: the Ruach was about to leave permanently - or so she said, He said. No. I rebuked that pronouncement, and her too!
When my granddaughter was 5 or 6 years old, I was forbidden to teach her anything about 'that religion.' Well, it was a blessing for her that I'd already taught her to pray, and taught her the Names Of Salvation, Yah and Yahoshua, before her mother laid down that law. Unfortunately, to keep the peace with his woman, my son supported her decision. So I backed away. Yahuah willing, when my GB gets older, she will come to me herself.
I've been poisoned by another achoti who also was, 'in the truth' supposedly. The witch, left me lying on the bathroom floor writhing in pain while she stood outside the bathroom door and listened - after I asked her for help. She did not help me. She walked away and left me there, I truly believe, to die. Prayer saved me that night. The pain flowed away (for that's how it seemed). I picked myself up, crawled into bed, and slept like a baby. The following day when I mentioned it, she confessed she'd heard me, but figured I'd 'be OK.' To this day I have no idea why she was so heartless, but I could not be around her after that.
These things were difficult, hurtful, and yes, downright painful! However, I saw them all for what they later turned out to be - tests; and a refining. Through it all, I bolstered myself with scripture; Mark 11: 22-24 was a favorite. I kept faith that Yah had a plan. I've learned that He is a Good Shepherd. He protects, He heals, and He provides for those who are His own. Yah Nicciy! Yah Rophe'ka! Yah Yireh! Still, I have no doubt there may be other tests. I can only strive to endure until the end.
As I said before, it was not easy; however, I did not falter, and Yah has blessed me. Do I have material possessions? Not much, but I am satisfied I have what I need. Yahoshua intercedes on my behalf, and Yahuah hears my prayers. It has been given to me during prayer, from what lineage I descend; and - I am not surprised! I have the Strength of the Covenant, the Sign, the את, with me. I have the gifts of the Ruach HaQodesh, that are meant for me and,
I am content.
These things to me, are more priceless than gold.