November 16th, 2018
A Long And Winding Road
I am YLiana Yisra'el daughter of The Most High Yah; a descendant of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob.
Long before I discovered that I am a descendant of a royal priesthood, I realized that I was set-apart; although I didn't understand what that really meant, or why I always felt like an outcast, in a world that never fully seemed to accept me.
At an early age, I was plagued by many of the things some sisters of Zion have struggled through: childhood sexual molestation, mental, and emotional abuse, as well as rejection within my own family. Nevertheless, for whatever reason, and in spite of myself, no matter how close to the edge of destruction I came, there was always something that kept me from toppling over.
I never felt at home in the midst of the congregants that filled religious institutions. I often played religious hopscotch throughout the years; dibbling and dabbling in being a Presbyterian, a Jehovah’s Witness, and then a Catholic, even a Mormon; none of which seemed to be the perfect fit. I became confused.
Yet in spite of all of that, I still believed that ‘God’ existed, and that the Messiah, (who is called 'Jesus' by the previously mentioned religious institutions); died for my sins. The atmosphere within those institutions had a hypocritical, redundant aura that left me feeling that something was definitely lacking. However, at the time, I did not have a clue what that ‘something’ was.
I would soon find out.